The words I needed, from the dearest of sources.
I always think that anyone who doesn't believe that God is omnipresent hasn't opened a Bible.
It always amazes me how, sometimes, when we seek the Word for help, we find exactly what we needed.
That happened today. I'm having a tough week. Emotionally, I feel pretty OK despite being tired, but things with the divorce are pretty much coming to a head. I think D and I have essentially reached a conclusion that I'll have to blog about when I get a chance, but in every one of his emails, he inserts a few low blows at me.
Last night, I was very frustrated with it. I was disppointed with the conclusion we've come to, because I feel like I'm giving up so much, but it's worth it to move on. D had accused me of having "greed runith over" (his spelling).
Hector and I were talking last night on the phone... and first of all - what a tremendous blessing he is to me. I understand better than ever why we are supposed to be with other believers. When he came out to the house last night to see my cat, he left behind a passage of Scripture that really spoke to my heart. And we've been going for a walk every day, either before my class or after my class, which has been such a great time to recap our days and regroup and redirect our focus heavenward.
Last night, when we were talking, he just reminded me of so many Scriptural truths. I felt like D was getting to walk all over me, and I was tired of not getting to lash back at him with the same low blows.
Today, I read from Jeremiah and Hebrews, the books that I'm working through, but I felt like there was something else I needed to get, so I turned to Proverbs.
First, I read this - Proverbs 17:10 - "Rebuke is more effective for a wise man than a hundred blows on a fool." That kind of grabbed me, because each time D throws words at me, I stop and ask myself, "Is that really who I am? Am I doing right?"
Even with the greed thing - it kind of reminded me that I'm getting so caught up in this money, and while I feel that I deserve a certain percentage of the house, it's *just* money. There are bigger things. God has been so gracious in providing for me financially throughout this whole ordeal - it's almost like I'm ignoring His blessing in that as I fight for more of the house.
Anyway, I think that maybe I should be thanking God that my heart isn't so hard that I can still take a "rebuke," even when it's from an unreliable source like D... becase I'd rather that than be on the dismissive side that he's on, unable to recognize his own evil ways.
Then I read this - Proverbs 17:27-8 - "He who has knowledge spares his words, and a man of understanding is of a calm spirit. Even a fool is counted wise when he holds his peace; when he shuts his lips, he is considered perceptive."
Ah.
Enough said.
It always amazes me how, sometimes, when we seek the Word for help, we find exactly what we needed.
That happened today. I'm having a tough week. Emotionally, I feel pretty OK despite being tired, but things with the divorce are pretty much coming to a head. I think D and I have essentially reached a conclusion that I'll have to blog about when I get a chance, but in every one of his emails, he inserts a few low blows at me.
Last night, I was very frustrated with it. I was disppointed with the conclusion we've come to, because I feel like I'm giving up so much, but it's worth it to move on. D had accused me of having "greed runith over" (his spelling).
Hector and I were talking last night on the phone... and first of all - what a tremendous blessing he is to me. I understand better than ever why we are supposed to be with other believers. When he came out to the house last night to see my cat, he left behind a passage of Scripture that really spoke to my heart. And we've been going for a walk every day, either before my class or after my class, which has been such a great time to recap our days and regroup and redirect our focus heavenward.
Last night, when we were talking, he just reminded me of so many Scriptural truths. I felt like D was getting to walk all over me, and I was tired of not getting to lash back at him with the same low blows.
Today, I read from Jeremiah and Hebrews, the books that I'm working through, but I felt like there was something else I needed to get, so I turned to Proverbs.
First, I read this - Proverbs 17:10 - "Rebuke is more effective for a wise man than a hundred blows on a fool." That kind of grabbed me, because each time D throws words at me, I stop and ask myself, "Is that really who I am? Am I doing right?"
Even with the greed thing - it kind of reminded me that I'm getting so caught up in this money, and while I feel that I deserve a certain percentage of the house, it's *just* money. There are bigger things. God has been so gracious in providing for me financially throughout this whole ordeal - it's almost like I'm ignoring His blessing in that as I fight for more of the house.
Anyway, I think that maybe I should be thanking God that my heart isn't so hard that I can still take a "rebuke," even when it's from an unreliable source like D... becase I'd rather that than be on the dismissive side that he's on, unable to recognize his own evil ways.
Then I read this - Proverbs 17:27-8 - "He who has knowledge spares his words, and a man of understanding is of a calm spirit. Even a fool is counted wise when he holds his peace; when he shuts his lips, he is considered perceptive."
Ah.
Enough said.
posted by Heather at 10:34 AM
1 Comments:
Wow... This is a great post. My situation is very different from yours, but the lesson is still the same. Just last night I found myself vomiting at the mouth because of the feelings I have developed towards my MIL. The story is much too long to dive into, but what you have shared is so true. I had to apologize to my husband last night because I don't want what I say to cause him any more pain than he already feels regarding his Mom. Why is it so hard to always do what we know to be right, though?? Good for you, Heather!
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